When you are scared of losing your faith
I have a confession
Can I be very sincere with you? You might be able to relate to my predicament and perhaps proffer a solution as well and that is why I am sharing this tale of fear with you. I cannot and do not trust my heart
In my walk with the lord, developing intimacy with him I have come to points and cross roads of fear. I do wonder if I might suddenly go back to old habits and addiction that dealt a blow to me.
Questions as: what if I lose the presence of the Holy Spirit; I love him so much, he is more real to me than me bombards my heart steady
After my discuss with my spiritual mentor on the issue of carefulness, It seemed like my fear skyrocketed to a higher dimension to the extent where I am scared of returning back to my vomit
I go a fishing
The man called peter was one of the few Jesus made a personal prayer for: he said to him “peter, the devil sought to sift you like wheat but I have prayed for you……”
You remember how peter ran his mouth and boasted of his unflinching love to Jesus and the desire to stand by him till death. Suddenly same Peter denied Jesus three times. Of cause you might have your opinion of peter as being on the fence but I would categorically tell you that the man peter indeed loved the lord
He was so much determined to die for him but you know what happened? Fear happened. I tell you the same fear speaks to both you and me everyday
Never assume that because you have great faith that you won’t go through certain tests and trials. Many times our faith is what will take us into the fire, or lion’s den
The same peter that got the revelation that Jesus was the son of God went back to his fishing business after that Jesus had gone away
Imagine Jesus’ surprise when they could not recognize him lols
Do you see the bulk of my fear now? The same reason why I do not boast so much but rather choose to do some other pummeling like Apostle Paul
Search my heart and know my ways
There is one man that challenges my life greatly; in fact it would be an understatement to say that David pushes me to make this prayer of searching and validation from the lord
In our Christian walk, we need to seek the validation of the lord always
Let me just say David is one of my most favorite people in the Bible from the brave little boy to the strong warrior. The adversities he faced were heavy, he always got into one temptation or the other BUT he never turned away from God. What a Christian man after God’s own heart!
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24 New International Versions (NIV)
I do not trust my heart one bit
If you are one of the few who are very sure of the position of their and are very certain of what their heart is capable of doing, congratulations,
As for me, I do not trust my heart one bit hence my prayer of brokenness
Search me, O God, and know my heart. David is no accomplice with traitors. He has disowned them in set form, and now he appeals to God that he does not harbor a trace of fellowship with them.
He will have God himself search him, and search him thoroughly, till every point of his being is known, and read, and understood; for he is sure that even by such an investigation there will be found in him no complicity with wicked men.
He challenges the fullest investigation, the innermost search: he had need to be a true man who can put himself deliberately into such a crucible. Yet we may each one desire such searching; for it would be a terrible calamity to us for sin to remain in our hearts unknown and undiscovered.
Try me, and know my thoughts. Exercise any and every test upon me. By fire and by water let me be examined. Read not alone the desires of my heart, but the fugitive thoughts of my head.
Know with all penetrating knowledge all that is or has been in the chambers of my mind. What a mercy that there is one being who can know us to perfection! He is intimately at home with us.
He is graciously inclined towards us, and is willing to bend his omniscience to serve the end of our sanctification. Let us pray as David did, and let us be as honest as he. We cannot hide our sin: salvation lies the other way, in a plain discovery of evil, and an effectual severance from it.
Once saved forever saved
Recently this issue of being saved forever started to make waves on my facebook page. Every Christian friend on my page had an opinion. Strangely enough I had the same question on my mind
Are we really forever saved just by folding our hands?
One of the questions that succeed my main headache is can a Christian lose their salvation? And we all know the answer is yes.
We have seen and heard tales of backslidden Christians so we already know the answer to that question is positive.
Now on the issue of being forever saved, I have few things to say to help clear our confusion
The Bible teaches that man is inherently sinful, that a sinful nature is a part of all of us. This means that even after being saved, every single believer is going to sin from time to time. Thinking that we can live a perfect, sinless life after our salvation is not only unscriptural, but arrogant.
If we are not eternally secure, this sinning will cause us to lose our salvation, but how much sin is too much? There is no scriptural “yardstick” given to tell us how many or what kind of sins are enough to void our salvation
These are just a few examples of verses that say we must continue in the faith to the very end to be saved. Notice that some verses say, “If we hold fast …” Salvation is conditional on our continuing to the end.
Even such a figure as the apostle Paul did not say he was assured of salvation. He wrote in 1 Corinthians 9:27, “But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified.”
The doctrine of “eternal security” is not found in the pages of the Bible. We must all endure to the end to be saved.
A person who willingly, humbly, repents of sin and turns towards the cross, trusting Christ as their Savior, will be saved. That salvation is once and for all, eternal, and secure. Those who truly trust in Christ are saved once, and saved always.
God is searching hearts, yours and mine
What to do when you are scared of losing your salvation
If you have this question in your heart then there are two plausible facts: you are frolicking with sin or you are just a Christian who does not want to sin against the lord
If in the case you are frolicking with sin:
- Repent from your sinful lifestyle and desist from playing with that which destroys generals. Sin can be sweet but very deadly. It is death itself
In other case where you are born again and filled with the Holy Spirit
Below are few keepsakes to save your heart from fear
- Always remember and be assured that the lord has forgiven you of all your sins and will not remember them anymore. Do not allow devil to keep lying to you about your past
- Submit your heart to the lord for total scrutiny and examination. The lord needs to break our heart and perform a surgical operation of separating our heart from the worldly desires that draw us back cause us to fall more in love with him.
- One of the advices my mentor gave to me and which I will never forget is on the issue of genuine death on the cross. No one goes to the cross to faint but instead to die. Plead with the lord to crucify you and your desires
- Feed on the word of God and soak yourself in prayer.
- Feel free to report back to God at all times and every junction of doubt. Rather than wallow in the darkness of fear, run back to God for more grace. Cry out to him in this manner: lord, I do not trust my heart, please help my unbelief
One of the prayers I have made consistently through last month is on the issue of genuine brokenness and crucifixion. I pray the lord to keep us till the resurrection morning when we shall be united with him in eternal glory.
‘Til then, we beat our body to subjection……